Bits &Pieces of thoughts .. Me.

Starfish

What i am.

Think about Being..

a wabbit ☺ unskilled and unaware of it ☺ humble ☺ louder than life ☺ passionate ☺ full of empathy ☺ irritated

SaY SomEthIng!!

Currently..

11.5.05

Right now i feel tired, lazy, wishing i could work hard, falling, struggling to keep away, inspired, unable to move, sad, hopeful, glad, envious, glum.

Overlaps one another a bit right? But really, its for seperate situations, and the depth/level of each is different.. though generally the same feeling.

Yup.

Okay, so shall begin from general things. Starting to feel very lazy. See, i've been running around with choir and council so much that i've had no time to do my work. But now that schedule become less mad, i am still not doing the work la.. just cant seem to get my butt down and just do it [even now when i should be doin math instead]. Have i just been using the excuse "im so busy running around, no time to do work and feel too tired" when in actual fact its just been a "TAK NAK~!" all along? Man, i took like a 14hour nap the other day.. been sleeping at 10,9pm promising to wake at 4/5/am .. in reality getting up at 6.45am (the absolute latest time i can get up). Tsk*tsk* . And along the way can still feel motivatd and inspired to do work WHEN I GET BACK, can envision me siting at my table doing loads of work and actually REVISING. Come on la, who am i trying to fool?? - [ so clever ah, can even ask myself that question ] -

So today all this sienness hit me at 630am.. after trying fruitlessly to wake up at 4am. .. and 5am..and 5.30am..and 6 am . So told my roomie " im not going!" then woke up later to see the face of my clock read nine.
did WORK though: GP compre due last friday AFTER extension.

12.30- Table Tennis match FINALS, cheering session, somwhere in Toa Payoh.
WAS GOOD! never seen such a tensioned filled match first hand before, both players and spectators. They had us at the edge of our seats la, reacting instantly to every point gained. Was glad to hear someone praise the new batch of councilors that lead in cheering [got hope!], to see the NJ supporters in strong numbers and to hear the NJ spirit in the participation of the students there. THE NJ SPIRIT- feel it. =)

Then left for a 6 hour session at a friends church to record the Council song. Sang the song so many times la! Was happy with end product. Not professional la, but still pretty okay! Had loads of fun though! hahaha, twirling and jumping around in circles, taking a timed photo shot using a handphone, seeing 3 people play percussions like its a life or death situation.. . COWS! terrible la, make me laugh till i cannot sing! Thankful for very nice people who helped us out for free with our recording and advising us, being patient.. must mention name. ARCHIE MONTE.
Was very tired after.

Read some blogs before coming to my own here. Remorse, over the things i could have done, missed out on, should have done, how close people seem to be, how they feel, how often they blog [haha, oops* compared to mine]. Envious, darnit some of them can write so well.. so much so that i feel compelled to read their every single entry . Really, how i feel the same way for some of them and for others the complete opposite. Struggling to keep away, i must i must. Unable to move, i really should get up and go bathe. Glum, thinking about the mountain load of work i have to do after this, the test i have tmr, that i just retyped half of this whole thing cos it got erased and the fact that i'll probably go to sleep after this, vowing to wake up early but failling to do so.

So yeah, as usual what is the lesson learnt here kids? That i should buck up, change what i can and need to, keep my chin up and make the most out of each and every single moment. Pray to Him for strength, wisdom to realize and change.

Yay, i blogged. Yay, you read this. Yay, i can go bathe now.
3 cheers for me. Go leave a comment. Outz-

posted by su @ 1:39 AM

1 Comments:

At 3:29 PM GMT+10, Elaine said…

TAg. I was first! :)