| Starfish |
| What i am. |
| Think about Being.. |
| a wabbit ☺ unskilled and unaware of it ☺ humble ☺ louder than life ☺ passionate ☺ full of empathy ☺ irritated |
| SaY SomEthIng!! |
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| Hostelmates.. |
| 9.3.05 |
About one in particular..
The good thing about living in the hostel, we're able to mug till real late with each other. Like now, just came back from level5 mugging with Eva. Yeah, while doing tutorials [for me] and mugging [for her] we'd have a short short conversation occasionally just to keep us both awake without being inefficient.
Group..
the 10pm meetings in the amphitheater. Though there seem to be less of these this year.
All being more serious about our academics. Though usually there'd be one or two of us around still, mingling with the juniors.. who are replacing our nightly role downstairs.
Sleep calls. Another long day tmr, begining with a council meeting. Outz-- |
| posted by su @ 9:45 PM |
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| Looking around |
| 8.3.05 |
Distantly gaze at a troubled friend's strife,
Wondering how things feel like in his life,
Obtaining a sense of strength for my own,
Helping me feel less sad, less alone.
But can it be truly say it is sadness i feel,
Perhaps its something to be overcomed with will,
Things keep changing; the webs, they grow,
Perplexing, confusing, slowing my flow.
Still flowing, still growing, still glowing.. |
| posted by su @ 8:21 PM |
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| Falling deeper.. out of it. |
| 7.3.05 |
Seems like we're all spiraling down, acknowledging it, trying to find a way out but having no sufficient time to sit down, think, figure out or take action. Because lack of time is not only the problem to the solution, but also the cause to the problem...
Yup, so now we all know why the last entry to this blog previously was 4 months ago. Actually, to be fair, i kind of forgot about blogging. Guess it was shoved waaaay down the Piorities List, which is usually never even completed half way.
I read the entries to a few of my "family" members, and found that they're going throught the exact same thing as me. Big surprise? Nope. Did it occur to me? im sure on some sub-conscious level, because if i had been fully aware of that i would have .. . talked to them about it? Well i wouldnt know what precisely i would have done because quite simply, i DIDNT think about it. At that point, all i was capable of thinking was about me, my stress.
The difference this " new-found-knowledge" makes ? i guess it makes me feel less pathetic. As self-rightous as that sounds [like the whole putting-others-down-elevates-me , except im not pushing anyone], its not a bad thing. OH duh its good for me, helps me put things into perspective and also makes me NOT feel like some emotional lousy sob, but also makes me push the PreSent TouGH situation down the difficulty level to normal and reminds me to reach out to people and not just sit still waiting for people to reach to me b'cos hey, if we all just sit still and moan at our own lives, we'll all just end up bald due to pulling-out-hair-action as a form to destress.
As if my current hair isnt short enough already.
Yup, so the other day of saying " everyone is just so caught up with our own problems that we are not strong enough to actually give support to each other cause we're just too stressed out ourselves. " doesnt have to be true. We have to move out of that stage. But actually we were kinda in the stage where we knew we were stressed, sort of knew others were stressed too, thinking of helping them, not actually helping them but wanting some form of help from some one, yet thinking we are capable of handling it on our own, partly because we think everyone else is too busy with their own stuff [which is actually stress but we just didnt think of adding that in again cause we alreday put it in the equation once] .
Right.
So all this is actually motivating me to sttart studying too. Haha, how about that? Another thing to add to my 'Scenarios,Opinions and Thoughts that make me Wanna STUDY'. Time to start finding things. Like my passion, strength and my 2nd order differential notes.
Which reminds me that i need to clean my room as well as find my sweater which i misplaced somewhere in school.
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| posted by su @ 9:06 PM |
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carried out life in Singapore.. 2 years exactly.
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