| Starfish |
| What i am. |
| Think about Being.. |
| a wabbit ☺ unskilled and unaware of it ☺ humble ☺ louder than life ☺ passionate ☺ full of empathy ☺ irritated |
| SaY SomEthIng!! |
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| Trip back to school |
| 22.6.06 |
Yup, as the title says, there i was back in school looking at all the kids in baju kurung la, librarians, prefect blue, pinafore. I couldnt help but giggle and upon seeing the words "usaha untuk kejayaan", promptly burst into singing our school song which last stanza contains the phrase.
My school days were fun-filled, happy days. Largely thanks to the fact that the discipline level was rather slack and the teachers tend to close one eye to students in the upper classes, since we were angels compared to the ones in the other classes. No, im not being a snob or looking down on them, they were just rowdier and more expressive in their discontent. But i guess they also had more to be discontented about. Different backgrounds, different up-bringing, different opportunities.
With the lack of competition, i found myself pretty much running around school doing whatever i wanted. Picture this: when a teacher failed to show up in class, leading to a free period, this usually meant a visiting trip to the staff room would ensue with one of my best friends,Jo & i, checking up on teachers and um.. enjoying the air-conditioning while we were at it. Breaking up fights occasionally, visiting juniors in the other classes, cutting class..crashing classes, driving off for breakfast mid-way when someone had a car, and once when we convince our substitute teacher to do so on his last day, or just simply walking out.
Being in the same surroundings once again, brings nostalgia, and at the same time relieve. Because i know, with all that fun, came a lot of pain and agony too. Lots of mistakes, choices, insecurities & heartaches. A lot of growing up done and lessons learn, leading to who i am in the present. If i had to go through all that again, im not sure i'd make the same choices as i had. Things would be different, could have turned out a whole lots worse, i could have been messed up. Reflecting back, no, i dont think things could have been any better, perhaps only a little and its amazing how things have been fallen out the way it did; beautiful. I have indeed been blessed.
Now its my turn to enjoy and i cant help but look at the kids in the uniforms, and just laugh.. |
| posted by su @ 3:32 PM |
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| Shutting up. |
| 16.6.06 |
Friend just left my house after having a good chat. Was telling him about something i've learnt this week, which we both agreed on; shutting up.
Its when you know something about someone, but you dont need to let that someone know that YOU know. Whats the point in letting the person know? Most often, it will just make the person be wary or feel akward that you know. Or, assume someone broke the trust between them by confiding that to you; nevermind that he didnt explicitly say NOT to tell anyone or the fact that it isnt a big deal or secret. Why the need to show that you KNOW? So you know, does that make you a better person or give you more control, an edge?
Or sharing about someone else to other people [ gossiping?]. My friend was relating about how sometimes when people are dissing or putting a particular person down, how when he knows something abt that person too..that the rest dont know and would probably go 'oOh' if they knew.. he feels its better to shut up. Honestly, what good is there in letting others know about that too? I guess it also depends on the issue at hand. Is wat you're about to say good, bad or just basic info. How u say it too.
So i know something about someone that you dont know about, does that make me better than you? does that mean im closer to that someone as compared to you?
When talking to people, you dont have to let them know you know. Its not having the feeling of contempt in letting the person think you dont know or conversely, feeling proud in showing that you DO know, its more a.. No need la. SHow for what? No need to show off. Nothing to show off.
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| posted by su @ 3:54 AM |
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| Adaptation |
| 8.6.06 |
I think that as we get chucked into a new environment, and start mixing around with new people, we adapt and change accordingly to what is expected and accepted. Then when we get placed back in our old environment, we switch back to what we were once again before. But that " once again before" is just how we were around the people at home right as opposed to how we were around the people abroad.
Im talking about the 2 years spent in Singapore with the group, and how things are now that we are all back home in Malaysia. Has living, sharing & growing taught us much or are we just back to our arrogant selfs - needing no one , sharing nothing. |
| posted by su @ 2:05 AM |
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Name: su
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About Me: Origin: Malaysia
carried out life in Singapore.. 2 years exactly.
Currently: Melbourne
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