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| What i am. |
| Think about Being.. |
| a wabbit ☺ unskilled and unaware of it ☺ humble ☺ louder than life ☺ passionate ☺ full of empathy ☺ irritated |
| SaY SomEthIng!! |
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| Talking.. |
| 23.5.06 |
Over to Singapore for the weekend. FEELS so good to have talked to SO many people, catching up, having heart to heart talks, sharing of dilemmas.
What is it about sharing that makes us feel so much better? It cant be about just clearing issues, sharing issues on the subject.. thats like.. debates ;) the 'getting weight of your chest' feeling? Finding reaasurance when we confide our problems/fears/hopes with close friends.
Also, sorting out misunderstandings. That, OF COURSE, always feels SO MUCH better after. Overall.. i'd say that it was a VERY GOOD weekend. Even if i didnt get much sleep. |
| posted by su @ 3:00 AM |
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| ASSUME: ASS U ME |
| 17.5.06 |
Possibly, one of the reasons why im so frank is because i hate people who assume. Its as if im afraid the person will misunderstand me if i dont spit the sentence out bluntly, as plain as possible. I also dislike it when people beat around the bush when trying to ask a favour of me, though i do understand that its actually an attempt at being polite. Most of the time i just play blur which forces the person to come right out and ask me directly - Sorry jo!
Hah, the ironic thing is that, quite often, i assume a lot too. Then my frankness based on an assumption is just, another assumption.
A lot of things are left unsaid, for whatever reason, get cast aside as time sweeps on by. The longer it is left that way, the deeper down it goes and it gets harder to bring up the point.
Then i realised, my parents assume a lot too. Its more of a simply saying things a.k.a jumping to conclusions. ITs so infuriating!! Like if i dont hear them calling me when im in my room , automatic assumption: she is on the phone. Dad will say
'This Su ar.. ALwAYs on the phone, always poh tim wah cuk.. '. And the worse part is, he will always just mutter this under his breathe , so unless i can hear it, he truly believes that and then very not happy about it, possible bad mood later. And WHAT can i do about it? NOthing because .. i dont know, i didnt hear him say it.. and the best part? I WAS NOT EVEN ON THE PHONE LAR!
well well. but what can i do? Unless the person comes to me and brings the subject to surface. |
| posted by su @ 6:18 PM |
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There are people who think lots bout things around them, like analyze and wonder why this, why that, why i feel this way, what made me do that. i just read a frens blog, and she so cute la- posted lotsa why questions on whole loads of stuff. But the ability for her to connect, acknowledge the issues or things; thats what i admire. I suppose thats the reason why she's quick and witty [she really makes me laugh] in conversations too.A really good person to have around, very people person.. hence works for a PR company.
I admire that. But sometimes that just complicates things so much too. Like when the phrase ' you're thinking too much into things' gets thrown at you. Or when we 'read too much into the situation'. Gah!! the solution is of course, to find the balance- as always.
But imagine if there is a line.. like a scale to determine how much of an analyser you are. can i accurately place myself on that scale? but for different matters, we have our different levels. Dont we just make ourselves arrogant by thinking that we do think enough, making us overestimate on the scale and dont we actually limit ourselves by thinking that we do think, bcos a certain sense of complacency settles in that comes innate the assumption. Or how about.. How can i improve myself, making me think more abt what i do? Haha, by blogging. Talking to people. Basically airing those thoughts out kan? Talking out issues is always good , finding where you stand relative to those who are around u, finding that 'hey you're not the only one who wonders on that'.. ie: breaking out of your lil' tempurung?
Hmm.. kan good to have the abilty to connect things lidat? But actually whats the point? to be more responsible? to have people love you more? to extract more satisfaction from d things u do? ALL of the above?
or.. be happy-go-lucky? easygoing. Selamba. Lepaks. Can u still be that way,, and yet think over things? On this, i'd like to think im an easy-going person. Who thinks. Haha..self-praise. Really tho, on some things, its that i DO know whats going on but decide to not let it bother me, and not be annoyed at a person/the situation. Quite trivial tho. so maybe im just, NOT-petty in certain things.
and what about child-like faith? is that simply, choosing to not-think-about it? or a .. no explanations, just believe. |
| posted by su @ 4:25 AM |
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carried out life in Singapore.. 2 years exactly.
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